Getting Out Of The C-Zone

"Cherry, you are playing safe", a remark I received from a dear friend aeons ago. Well, I couldn't agree more.

I always am one of those boring kids whose daily routine is home--school--home. A change in my daily course would probably for church on Sundays and casual errands to run. Other than that, nothing. Thus, the reason how I developed my beloved hobbies--reading, writing journals and anything one can possibly do indoors.

This went on even in College. I have friends, besties for that matter, but we just hang out at school. We seldom meet outside and most of the time, it would be for school-related activities. Well my focus on academics paid-off, but in the expense of me.

I became too familiar with the wall I built within and couldn't get out. Then one day, I woke up feeling lost. I asked myself, "What have I done with my life? Where am I headed?" I have to admit that this is one of the darkest phases I've been--not that I regret my choices, but I wish I've thought about my happiness more, I should've known better.

Yet, I got by my growing pains through thorough introspection, prayers and meditation. I need to be secured of the fact that its not too late for me to better my choices, to live life in its fullness and to be happy, truly.

Thus, here I am at the city, new and unknown to me, far and beyond my comfort zone, trying to carve my own path and patching up my broken pieces to make it whole again. My hopes are high in this risk I took and I believe that one day, when I get home, I'd become stronger, better, driven and motivated to take on life.

After all, I'm a student of the world. All these are just lessons I need to learn.